The Final Mental Plateau - Surpassing my Predecessors (AMx ReBorN) Oct 2 2015 Poem of Renewal

I have come so far with so much to gain - and knowledge to entertain..I often encounter obstruction, diversion and moments of staying almost 'too still'...but yet my will remains! Even with disruption though one thing is for sure, the most unkind movements often are only diversions from the most unkind of atmospheres - but I will have it known that those very atmospheres are also within our individual momentums and subject to our perception and resolve.

I have learned so much and the battle's that I have been through are nothing short of amazing...I could say that I am not proud of everything I have done in the past - but the reality is I do not regret any of it because of what it has contributed to my being, now...to what I know now...sometimes I am so amazed at what I have become in a few short years that I wonder if one night, I went to sleep and was suddenly, well...influenced to become..something, someone, much greater than myself..it's almost as if the world I live in is surreal - that I have woken up following the embarking upon a vast almost interminable  land of knowledge - one that would take over 20 years to gain benefit from under 'normal circumstances'...it's as if suddenly a whole wealth of knowledge of both light and dark was granted to me nearly overnight... But  I believe that the reality is God; a provider of wisdom, is merely doing this to accommodate me after years of hardship because he knows... I have a mission..and so do my ancestors; my predecessors..whom look after me and see what I can become, what I may be up against..but, I also...well...


I also believe my ancestors are applauding me in my efforts, I believe that they are fighting for me. I believe they have risen their hand to my enemies, they have encouraged me... and even though I often despise those who have born me. I also know - that these events were inequivocally necessary for a new wave of strength to come to those who have unveiled my existence.

I  have seen even begun to understand the coordination of knowledges and spiritual momentum that my forefathers and predecessors, and ancestors have not completely understood or mastered....I do not know it all nor claim to - but I am seeing a connection...but, sometimes this connection is less elucidated than others and.... I am made by now  by a new sense of discipline which is still being tempered after moments of massive conflict but equally massive triumph...!

Though I ,.. so much in struggle and sacrifice, and sufferage and enmity and  Rumination and misperception, have become firmly emboldened , made fearless and understanding... my endeavors have proven me a successor and one who recognizes all of the pieces of my true past, my true spirit, and in reality and truth the illusions are finally lifted...on this night, October 2nd, 2015..which is really technically the 'night' of the 1st - is actually the second...well on this night I realized that...

Even though I can be seen as a biological miracle, even though I continuously see myself reaching to become the epitome of human perfection. I also reach for the fragments of my childhood, those energy-bursting moments of glee and ecstatic and furious enthusiasm. I reach for them because it is those fragments that will find me the most invigorating patterns of kinetic fuel. It is the nearing the darkest times of the world..but I have seen a great future - these are the moments that will matter...

I always tell myself to push harder, almost to the point of Insanity - I always tell myself to go 'above and beyond' to reach for the things others do not see...that is my motto - my motto is one of innovation and true courage...understanding and EXPECTING Resistance; understanding that for every action there will be at some point, an equal and opposite Re-action... Yes, I understand the bodies of science - the governing bodies of truth but I also have been blessed to See PAST  Illusion...

...And though  I often dwell in darkness, it is light I seek - a diversion from the mayhem; the final partition to true balance is awaiting me... and - though I may not know all of the specifics... I do know that this stubborn mental battle of mine..this spiritual warfare upon whom the greatest of dark deities have imagined upon me - is a final mental plateau - it is the one that precedes the greatest moments of renewal - the greatest ascension I can ever imagine...